wow its been a long time since I posted - it seems really strange, like a friend you havn't seen in a while and they ask you what new - what do you tell them, if you say only what is new on a vague sence then you are leaving out parts that might be essential in the catching up process, but then again time is a huge factor and if time is limited then you can only say "Not much" I will try for a happy medium or perhaps not at all.

I have been thinking lately about the debate about revolututionaries and reformist. This seems to be the divide in the new social movement, yet I feel that it is a false devide. People who seem to think that we can do both make change from every angel are thought to be confused. The President of the student council once said that he wanted to have direct action for grannies allowing everyone to participate. Those that argue against him think that we need to concentrate our resources have a singular plan of action and depending on there side either only have direct action and on the street protest, or change things from the inside. this debate leads me to think about this other debate I have heard.

the idea that if you are to make change you have to do it from the inside first. There is this song from Heaven to Betsy where Corin say "White girl want to change the world, your not going to change anything untill you change you racist self" . . . Here I agree that we have to work on our selves and fight our own learnt racism, sexism, homophobia etc And I feel that many of these revolutionaries have not spent enought time looking at themselves and they don't take the time to learn like as ani says in make them apologize"
they all want to lead the fight
and they know what they know all right
but there's so much
they don't understand
what about the other sex
what about the other hand
they only know what they've been told
and they're well cast
but they don't break the mold
and good sources are not enough
so she calls their bluff
yeah, she calls their bluff

'cause the revolution business
is still run by men
like every business
and everything
but we can sing like a sonofabitch
make them twitch around their eyes
until they realize
they just don't realize

so we do need to work on ourselves in order to make change, cuz if a sexist racist group takes over capitalism may end and so many things that go allong with it may end, but fundamental problems will still be there because it will be things that they never even thought about. But my real point is that if we spend all of our time unlearnign adn challanging ourselves before we go out there and do things to make changes then nothing is going to be done, I feel we need to do both at the same time. Just as I think we need to do all kinds of work to make a difference.
I met this anercist boy over the weekend; he wouldn't get involved in any chartity work or development work because he thinks it the wrong way to go about change, he thinks we need to preasure our own goverment adn make fundamental changes in the structures so that poverty and suffering in the south does not happen, getting away from dependancy and such. I agree again to a point, that yes the best solution would be to end capitalism and the structures that are keeping the south dependent on the north etc. Yet at the same time, I can't just sit back and wait for this to happen I feel compassion and feel a need to reach out and do something on a community level. I think that we have the body power to do both of these things.


that was probably the last thing one would think I would say when asked whats new . .. but there it is regardless . . .

more to come thought on : going the student union cult, ideas of sane and how people relate to the relative term of insane, dressing in drag and getting with a boy