back from anarchist u, completely loved it, partially it was getting away from the city and being in this camping environment, swimming in lakes, cooking over a camp fire, sleeping under the stars. when I am in that environment everything becomes clearer, simpler and I know that everything will be ok. The anxiety and depression that is built from the presures of urban capilatist existance dwindles and dreams start to flourish.

lilies float just beneath my pull

crystal rays guide my way

a world of life under the surface, free

we are given freedom, 'freedom' to be issoloate

'freedom' to consume, 'freedom' to pollute and distroy

the driver murmers "I understand what Prouhdon was on about;

'property is theft', all we want is a place to swim"

once surrounded by water and the voices of my friends are drained out by the gentel ripple I reach calmness, a sense of clarity

i feel you need to be out here

my dreams flow towards me with the gentle waves

the thick forests expose the possibilty,

the vastness of this land,

the diverisity of knowledge and experience

the other part of the trip that I loved was connecting with all these new great people, finding out different projects that people are involved in, feeling the passion, determination, hope that all these people express. PASSION and FREEDOM the two words that I have considered getting tattoed onto my body were lived through example by the people this weekend.

I came back from this weekend and read an email from james that said "tobie, you know you are an anachist at heart, now you need to start organising" in an attempt to encourage me to join WSM (workers solidarity movement) an anarchist group in ireland that he has recently become part of. It is true that I was an anarchist at heart before really understanding what it ment. I was thinking and organising with anarchist tendancies for years. But as someone said this weekend "kids are born anarchist, they are trained to be statused." It seems to be it is all part of the unlearning process, deconstructing socialised norms and expectations that one leads to anarcism.

Until two years ago I had never had anyone identify to me as an anarchist and due to this and my ignorance, I had many misconceptions. yet becoming closer with people in OCAP and with marike I realised that this ideas that had been developed in my mind were sensational and not at all realistic. With breaking that boundary suddenly I was open to the ideas and realised I was already living and loving in a direction that was closer to anarchism then anything else. I also realized that most of the people I know and have been involved with have anarchist tendancies regardless of their idenities. And the more I talk to people the more people seem to identify with anarchism.

so what do I have to say about all this now . . .well; organize, educate, agitate :)